"It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not." -- Tolkien
Here I am on the precipice.
Already a grey sky thickens winterward
But this is already winter, of a sort.
There is a year gone to ground
A month ago, burrowing into the past
From which we will find treasures--and dragons--
and great hills of swallowed fire while the trees
put a ring around 2020.
What will that look like?
I add a loop on the line
Pink, no sparkles, like flat sunset
rather than a champagne vision,
fizzing on a table in an empty restaurant
where we cannot despair
because, of course, there
we cannot be.
I believe that this is another
stillborn story. I am playing in this journal
at making art--really, I am doing that thing
I wanted to do in high school,
keeping a diary of the empty days
to remind myself that blogs
and houses and interests and fears
have a lifespan.
I add a flat link, one letter
to another. A word breaks at the margin;
frangible English or magical
sawing itself
between meaning and space.
Nearly, but not quite, an end.
This beautifully captures the feelings we all have carried over the last year. May the lifespan of fear and isolation be short. I love the idea of keeping a diary of the empty days. That is deep and amazing writing my friend. So glad you participated this week!
ReplyDeleteEach stanza a work of art ~~ I cannot let go of the second.
ReplyDelete"I believe that this is another stillborn story." Oh I love that line. I have lived it when sitting down to write. This is such a perfect poem for the times we have been and are going through. Is normal a dream we'll never dream again? Sigh...I wonder
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